The big day had finally come. I got dressed up in my best suit, put on the gown and prepared to walk across a stage to retrieve a piece of paper that was 4 years in the making. My turn finally came. I didn’t trip and even ended up hugging my teacher on stage. At that moment, I was happy. All those sleepless nights and Starbucks baristas fueled this moment I had waited my entire life for. After the inevitable parties, my family threw for me a question suddenly dawned on me that hadn’t crossed my mind before…”Now what?”
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